Jacob

when you're gone we'll
kiss your face and
pray for you even though we've never prayed before
cry,
like we never did in your presence
after you go
we'll love you and
we'll cry with anger 'cause of
the things you did, how
you ruined your life and
ours
for a bit, how
you screwed everything up and
left us all alone
went and
left us all a-fucking-lone

when you go we won't be surprised
it's always sudden and
we'll be shocked but
hardly surprised and we'll say fuck you
damn you, you fucker, for
screwing life like this, we'll
love you and
pray for you even though
we never ever prayed before and probably
never believed in god or heaven but
we'll tell each other that's where you are, we'll
cry and look at the sky and say
there's him
there's you and we'll miss you
so fucking much
and you have no idea
how much
we'll blame ourselves
when you're gone

so don't you fucking die on us
don't you fucking leave

Bit

after days, weeks
weeks of yearning, burning and
simply wanting to die
after hours hours hours of
nothingness and counting all those
fucking hours
every day
after time oh so much time I
actually did pick those
scattered fucking pieces of me
of the floor
and slowly
the brokenness mended
a lil bit
a lil bit

Let go

thanks to heartache
thanks to fucking heartache and despair
thanks to you and me and
all our shitty behaviour
everything we caused each other
everything we did together everything
(we said it was, everything)
thanks to that,
to everything and more
you me, all our cruelty
all our lies – god bless them
sweet lord
god bless the way we made me suffer
you go crazy
and us fall a-fucking-part
thanks to this
yeah all this and so much more
thanks to this
now here
I'm letting you go